4 years ago i've been in a college. My first year at University i met my soulmate not a girlfriend,  continued from my first thread check the link below..

https://www.kaskus.co.id/thread/5c90...ile&med=thread

Story began with before I met my girlfriend at the same college. My soulmate was my bestfriend before, we sharing our problems and talking about our love with others. First time we getting close in my condition my hobby and her was same at moment like making a shit convo about my friends who not in our community maybe we like a demon whispering their bad looking or some unlikely their style about outfit sometimes. Day by day my soulmate have boyfie but we still getting closer still talking and have a lunch together making a nice talk about her boyfie who currently not good enough for her, actually not im a good one, no.  But he was very  bad habbit like get drunk and high at the same time my soulmate taught he was bad but,he good at his personality perhaps.

Her special makes me like her was her smile and looking at me. I do knew what I was doing was wrong get close with a girls someone doesnt make you feel good at the moment.Maybe my bad was asking her for a date everyday but her boyfie didn't know that she dating with me. Why I getting more close to her cause she attracked me too and gave me a change to taking back her heart. Her hair is straight long. Has similar eyes with me and had a same months of birth at November,me at 26th she was at 23th 1996. She have beauty smile and like talking shit as a jerk everyday we spent time together. 

At September 16 I officially got a girlfriend and i know she knew. But we still make a contact like calling each other, telling our problems about our relationship as a besties when we gonna do in the next step? and yeah we dont have the answer what next being start.But we know that we could be together someday, day by day we were getting far away like we never now each other yet. I try to chasing her like say hi we met at classroom but her response just a little smile to me.  Tried talk to her what happen, are you mad at me? and he said "No. Why am I mad at you,you know that I love u right? I just want to serious with my boyfriend and stay away from you,is that ok?". And yeah I didn't have word to say, but it fair enough for me and now I tried to move on from her and walked to loving my girlfriend as I should.

Beginning of the 2019 I never met her again after we graduate and I said congratulation for her graduate at Mei, 2018. At that time in 2019 my best friend called me she said your closefriend's getting marriage at this june. Surprised to me, and I no have idea what to said. My heart was cutting off piece by piece. Why this tragedy happened to me, I never prepared to ready at all. After I broke up at the end of 2018 and now this year my soulmate soon get marriage with her bestfriend at school. I try to texting her but never get text me back, and I try to call her never pick up. Finally I call my best friend why she didn't pick up my phone? my friend said "she never want to see and talk to me again at the entire of her life".

My life's are very tragic like why nobody never loves me and make me happy now. Why they leave me? why so ironic and phatetic Iam living in this kind of shit relationship. I hope someday the truly love come to me and never leave me.

I HOPE...