"Tok tok"
Begitulah bunyi pintu rumah salah satu penghuni kaskus,
"Tok tok"
Suara ketukan itu terus berulang, hingga akhirnya sang pemilik rumah terbangun,
"Siapa disana?"
Sang pemilik berteriak,
"......"
Tidak ada jawaban, tengah malam begini bukanlah waktu bagi tamu untuk berkunjung, sang pemilik rumah mengendap endap, mengintip dari jendela,
sunyi... tak ada suara...dan terlalu gelap untuk melihat siapa diluar...
Karena rasa takut, sang pemilik berteriak lagi
"Ini sudah malam, pulang sana !" dengan nada setengah marah.
"Krak...krak..." suara pintu dibuka dengan paksa.
Karena ketakutan sang pemilik bersembunyi di dalam lemari.
Terdengar suara dari jauh, nampaknya dari 2 orang yang masuk ke rumahnya,
"Kau mendengar suara tadi ?"
"....kan sudah kubilang, tidak ada orang disini, pemilik rumah sebelumnya meninggal di dalam lemari karena kebakaran, jadi rumah ini ditinggal begitu saja, kau masih takut ?"
Sang pemilik rumah berkeringat basah.
The End.

Yesterday, I was having a dream... a rather strange dream, eerie and unpleasent, I got caught myself in a chair in a strange big room, can't talk, can't cry, can't act, just sit there without doing anything.
The room there isn't hot nor cold, but the things is...there stood in front of me, a big mirror with me in it, behind me a slowly walking animal or person, I don't know what it doing, but he/she/whatever it is, carry a giant sickle, I was afraid because I can't move nor alone talk or shout to help, slowly he walk near me, and said,
"How it feels when you know that you are hopeless, like in hell right?"
And he slashed right into my head,
I awoke in the middle of class with teacher behind me hit me with a book,
And I said "sorry sire, I was dreaming like I'm in hell situation, but when I wake up, yet I'm still in there"

My friend is making an anthology book about love and romance, which she invited me to write for. I declined the offer, but it made me want to try to write one so here is my story. For the most part of my life I had no interest in girls, nor did I have any desire to be in a romantic relationship of any kind. Oddly enough, I was exposed to a lot of movies and books about romance growing up, as I used to live in grandma’s house with four of my female cousin, and you would expect that I’d be more of a hopeless romantic if anything. But alas, the concept seemed so foreign and distant; I simply couldn’t understand it in an emotional level. That all changed however, after a particular dream I had about a year and a half ago or two.

The hands on my watch signified that I was about to be late for something important. I can’t remember what or where it was, but I remember that I ran as fast as I could. As I was running through, ignoring everything and everyone, I saw in the corner of my eyes a glimpse of a girl crouching over at the edge of the road, holding a small dog. I was about to run past her when she suddenly called me.

“Hey, I’m sorry to bother you, but could you help me? I need you to hold this dog and make sure that he’s calm for a minute,” she said. I simply nodded and petted the dog, who was visibly wounded and scared. The girl rummaged through her backpack for a while before she pulled out a small set of first aid kits. After she tended the wound, she gave the dog a piece of bread from and let it go. The dog wagged its tail and barked, as if trying to say thank you before it left.

“Why did you let your dog go like that?” I asked the girl, confused as to why anyone would just let their pet leave them.

“Oh, that’s not my dog I just found him a moment ago, and I felt like helping him” she said with a satisfied smile on her face. I just laughed at this stranger’s refreshingly kind act, and commended her for it. After that we made some small talk before parting ways.

The next few weeks I met her again a few times doing more random acts of kindness, and we talked more and more with each meeting. She was kind and gentle, and always caring. Along the way she also helped me do the same. We became friends not long after, and I started actively helping her randomly help other people. It was wonderful, as I didn’t realize before, that helping people could make me feel so happy and fulfilled. As time goes by we became closer and closer, until at one point it happened; for the first time in my life I felt like I was in love. It was confusing and frightening, but it was also exciting and wonderful.

After that the dream was mostly a blur, and I just remember that we were suddenly dating and in a relationship. Time had passed and we had graduated from college.

During that time, I vividly remember a particular moment. It was a very cliche scene. I remembered her wearing a nice white summer dress, and we went to a nice quiet beach where we simply walked down the coast marveling every little thing. Noon soon arrived and as the sun shined bright and hot right above, we rested under the shade and lay down for a while. Not saying anything, we looked at each other and smiled, and just simply enjoying the silence and the company of each other. With the sound of the sweet lullaby of the sea, lulling us into a state of peace and tranquility. It was one of the greatest feeling of bliss I’ve ever had.

After that it was all a blur again. We did get married, and on our way on having our first child, when it all suddenly ended. I had been rudely awoken from my dream. It felt like it went on for months and years, and I felt like I had achieved everything one could hope to achieve in life. My mind tried to grasp what is left of the dream, but my body was pulling me away from the ether. Reality starts to set, and immediately followed a feeling of crushing loneliness, one that I’ve never felt before. The dream affected my emotional state and mood for the next couple of weeks. It also changed my attitude and feelings towards love and romance. Although I still find it to be distant, I at least could understand it know. Reading around online forums revealed that this is a common dream, and all those people having a similar dream also felt the same way.

The phrase “girl of my dreams” is often thrown around, but this is the first time I’ve actually understood it.

Siapakah engkau?
Hai. Diatas adalah pertanyaanmu? Haha tumben kamu bertanya, jangankan bertanya, kamu dan mungkin setiap manusia tidak menyadari kehadiranku. Baiklah aku kan memberimu sedikit petunjuk.
Pernahkah kamu ketika melakukan kesalahan dan kamu menyadari itu salah, lalu aku datang dan berbicara kepadamu. Kamu tidak tahu darimana aku berbicara tapi kamu dapat mendengar aku. Aku menasehatimu setiap kali kamu berbuat salah selama aku masih ada didalam tubuh ini.
Kita bertiga bersama-sama menempati tubuh yang sama. Aku, kamu, dan sesosok teman. Diantara kita bertiga hanya kamu yang memiliki rumah di tubuh ini. Aku dan sesosok teman tidak. Bahkan kamu mungkin tidak akan pernah tahu dimana aku dan sesosok teman ini berada di dalam tubuh.
Aku berbeda dengan nafsu. Tugasku hanya menasehatimu dan tugas nafsu hanya berkeinginan. Aku tidak bisa melakukan tugas nafsu, begitupun sebaliknya. Jika nafsu dapat bertindak maka aku tidak. Aku bisa menasehatimu tapi nafsu tidak. Nafsu memiliki keinginan sendiri dan keinginan itu adalah nafsu. Nafsu bisa masuk ke rumahmu tapi aku tidak. Nafsu bisa mengambil alih dan memerintah rumahmu secara sementara sampai keinginannya terpenuhi. Rumahmu hanyalah alat untuk memproses sesuatu, kamulah yang memprosesnya.
Misalnya, jika rumahmu mendapat sinyal lapar, lalu nafsu akan berkeinginan untuk makan. Dari keinginan nafsu itu muncul tindakan untuk makan. Maka rumahmu, akan bergerak melalui perantaranya untuk makan. Setelah terpenuhi nafsu akan hilang, tapi tidak benar-benar hilang. Dia hanya diam seolah-olah hilang.
Apakah semua nafsu jahat? Tentu saja tidak. Karena nafsu adalah keinginan dalam bentuk tindakan. Jika tanpa tindakan maka itu hanya keinginan semata, khayalan. Dan kahayalanpun adalah nafsu. Kita hanya bisa menilai sebuah nafsu baik atau jahat melalui akibat dari tindakan tersebut.
Jika kamu hanya bisa menilai benar atau salah, aku bisa menilai baik atau buruk.
Tapi hey itu adalah rumahmu. Tempat dimana kamu berada. Kamu bisa mengusir nafsu dari rumahmu jika kamu tahu akibat dari tindakan nafsu nantinya adalah salah kan?
Apakah nafsu peduli terhadap tubuh yang kita diami? Jika itu berkahir dengan baik dan benar memang iya, tapi jika tidak maka nafsu tidak peduli dengan tempat dimana kita bertiga ini berada.
Contohnya, saya akan memukul tembok ini!. Nafsu berkeinginan. Karena nafsu adalah keinginan dalam bentuk tindakan maka tubuh mulai memukul tembok. Setelah itu? Karena keinginan terpenuhi nafsu pun hilang dan diam. Tapi apa akibat dari tindakan tersebut? Tanganpun sakit. Ini tentu saja tidak baik untuk tubuh. Contoh kecil bahwa nafsu tidak peduli terhadap tubuh. Apakah nafsu berpikir sampai kesana? Hoho, nafsu tidak punya pemikiran. Itu adalah tugasmu. Nafsu hanya peduli pada keinginannya sendiri.
Dari penjelasanku, aku yakin kamu bisa menerka aku. Ya karena memang itulah tugasmu. Benar kan, Pikiran?