stay strong..!! maybe it's the last day :) stay strong till you met the one :) if you can spent your whole life until today, you can face your next day too.., when you can feel life is 'normal' before, you can create the other 'normal' too today, tomorrow and also the day after tomorrow until you...
Talking big about friendship and swlf awareness, when myself can't count my friend and tell who am i. Because i'm not sure there's someone that count me as their friend, because i don't do that. And i'm still as useless as before(?), but talking big about the meaning of people existance. Aaarrgghh
Exhausted. Aaarrrgggghhjhhhhh...., Have i share the problem? I'm so fucking tired to keep my superego control my id. Di saat lo tau masalah ini gak jamin kelar dg cara cerita ke orang lain, tapi udah amat sangat lelah ngatasin sendiri....,
Omg, i have a habit to finished what i have started. Could it be .... :D Ini mah alibi..., nggk bisa kontrol diri..., wkwkwk
yes.., it's not easy..., i try to stick on the rule.., just do as what SOP said.., even it's make me uncomfortable.., like i do nothing.., (maybe yes? :D) but what can i do?? it's like everything out of my reach ~
Okay..., at least i'm doing good for 2 days. Next chapter must be more than that. I think i know the solution, i need help from other people. Yes, it doesn't easy to be perfect by myself. I am too arrogant, i guess. Let see how long i can be :)
My pride is broken. Tapi emg ada penyakit perfeksionis (ocd?) juga, agak ribet buat adjust dg perubahan. But it's okay, i'll try ^^
Entahlah, manakah diriku sesungguhnya. Mari nikmati proses interaksi ini. Setidaknya ku coba untuk melibatkan hati agar langgeng terkenang. Meskipun belum seutuhnya. Mengapa baru sekarang? Ah sudahlah.., esok lusa siapa bisa jamin rasa ini terus terlibat ,
Coba 'rasionalisasi' kesalahannya. Sejauh apa kemampuan kita dlm kesalahan tsb, kalau udah diluar kemampuan terimalah kondisinya, terus daripada dipikirin dan nyalah2in doang mending diajak produktif pikirannya utk cari apa yg bisa dilakukan utk memperbaiki kondisinya. Semoga membantu dan TS bisa
