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[LOVE LETTER 4] BBBB "BBBBB, BBBBB" B?



Bilakah Bila Bersedia Bilang “Bila Bila Bisa Bahagia Berdua, Biar Bila Berbagi Bahtera Bersamamu” Bagiku?

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Offering only honesty and sincerity to you…
At the very first encounter of us, I did not expect anything to emanate this strongly out of my inner mind, and my inner conscience

This might sound like I’m running away… from my own past like a dejected loser
Like I’m intentionally looking for someone else just to juxtapose another, to fill in the hole she left, just as a drive-by
Nevertheless, this is truly what I’ve been experiencing and feeling all this time after meeting you

This feeling, all of it, began when you first came and greeted me, interacting together just like any fellow dwellers in a thread
I felt nothing altogether, that was truly what I felt, initially

Then you altered your profile, into a character from a fictional series
And that piqued my interest, just a tiny bit, for the very first occasion
I turned into a curious spirit, scrolling through your threads and pages, one by one, trying to understand yourself even just for a bit more

Then you updated the post with a close-up snapshot of yours
Truly bewitching, took me a moment to snap out of that dreamy state

A chance presented itself for me, requested to be a committee of an event held over here
So I seized that chance, allowing me to offer you one or two poems (I thought to myself)
But that did not go well for me, after you doubted my sincerity
That was a reality check for me, came and slapped me awake

It was then that it dawned upon my mind
How my word felt superficial, too shallow, only a grazing a surface
I thought I have broken free out of my past shackles, only to find out that I was lying to myself at that time I wrote those poems
Having a delusion that I moved on already with my life
Truly a pathetic excuse of a human being, yours truly

However, what happened that time also made me contemplate
Perhaps, this encounter was a chance from heaven so that I could stand back up
Another opportunity to renew my life with your love

I’m truly sorry I’ve hurt you, so will you let me redeem myself, a second chance?

With this piece, I pray you would find in your heart a generosity to hear my sincerity
No matter how futile it seems for you, no matter how superficial it may sound to you, no matter how (relatively) inferior my love seen from your perspective
I will keep moving forward while bearing this feeling, this yearning
Even if you ask for my beating heart, I will not back away, I cannot, not this time

Not from this love, the one I feel upon meeting you

For that, I promise you

Sincerely,

The man who let you down once


Spoiler for yours truly the bucin:

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