Sometime you have to face with your weaknesses, i know it's not easy but if you pass, so you are the winner...
How about if Allah test you, so just try to do the best for your self. Because in Al-qur'an Allah make many promises for human.
Maybe you might say that you smart enought to write this comment but, i dont catch your idea, what conditions you try to lift up?
I dont get it, what r u talkin about ?
Better put this at Dear Diary thread or something